I’m hoping that by writing my blog I can get some support anonymously. Who am I? A girl with her life caving in, a girl with another broken heart. I’ve had a difficult life, and it doesn’t seem to get easier. I thought I found the love of my life a year and a half ago, and all the failed relationships would make sense and have led to this. Unfortunately, I’ve recently found that the man I love is dishonest. While being a father to my son and the love of my life, he has been talking to hundreds of other women. While I’m unsure that his cheating has led past anything other than emotional infidelity, I find it just as gut wrenching.
I lost my job last year, 6 months after M and I moved in together. I had moved for this job, and loved where I worked. About a month prior to that, I had stopped getting child support as my son’s father remarried and decided his financial support would end. I didn’t have a formal support order- my son’s dad had always paid and we hadn’t done a formal agreement. He has since gone underground, and currently owes $20,000 in back support. With M’s help, we hired an attorney who is also unable to find him. Needless to say, the loss of my job was devastating. M assured me that we would work on it together, and that there wasn’t anything we wouldn’t do together. Six months later, I still don’t have a job or child support. I’m educated, smart, but apparently forgettable, as job interviews do not turn into jobs for me. M is stressed- a single middle aged man with no children thrust into supporting not only his girlfriend, but also a small child. Apparently, he has decided to look elsewhere to relieve his stress.
This blog will cover my journey, as well as delve into my past. I’m desperate to hold onto my family, but am not sure that will be an option for me. I’ve also not told M what I have uncovered about his indiscretions, and without a job or support don’t believe it would be wise to do so. I’ve moved around a lot in my life and don’t have a stable friend network. I’m hoping this might be an outlet to get support and share a story you’d have to hear to believe.
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